I want out.

I really just don't care anymore. Idgaf about this damn essay that's due tomorrow. I suck ass balls writing essays dude. I know you can tell I wrote it at like one in the morning but who cares? Well, obviously Mr. Meyer but irdgafa. My future profession does not consist of writing. I love blogging but dude. Essays are another thing. Right now, I just want to pass all my classes. At least a C. That's passing right? Idc about the white robe!! The super high GPA! It doesn't matter to me. And SAT's Saturday? WGAF? I don't!! I'm not even planning on going to a UC or whatever the shit's called.

I don't wanna sound like an emo bitch but all I really want to do is sleep! I can't stand being awake anymore. I hate it. The days are so long and the nights pass by so quick. It's like I never get to sleep. I don't wanna do this anymore. There's no motivation. No inspiration. No push. Nothing. Idk what anyone can say to help me.

Im a little sad though because I had big dreams. I wanted to go to a UC. Maybe be a doctor to make my goddamn mother happy or do something that deals with the environment. My dreams were so big.... But I really don't feel like going for them. I already know what today's reality is. It's sad because those big guys who have the power to make things better aren't doing shit. I fucking hate this shit. Can't I die already? I'm done dude. I am fucking done with this sicko world we're living in.