EXHAUSTED.

I now know the true meaning of that word. It's how I'm feeling right now. I barely slept for like the past two days. I've been having nightmares and haven't been able to sleep. I was having suicidal dreams this morning too. They were pretty bad actually. Almost as bad as the ones when I was on chemotherapy. But yeaaaah. I'm not going to let my exhaustion keep me from going out! It's a beautiful day outside!! I don't wanna sleep the whole day you know. I'm going to wake up at night with nothing to do. I know I'll find the energy that I need later. Man I would just love to fall asleep right now! Being super sleepy and just being able to fall asleep all quick is like the best feeling. I especially just got out of the shower. I'm usually a night shower person and I like sleeping right when I get out. Hahahah yes! I like to sleep naked! It feels goooood. It just sucks though sometimes when you wake up in the middle of the night and you're all cold haha. And
sometimes you're too sleepy to even put on some clothes. :p

Soooooo yeah. The weekend isn't even over yet! It's been really fun so far. It could have been waaaay better I know but oh well. I'm a stupid girl. :( especially yesterday. I really wanted to watch the fireworks with him. I never really watched fireworks with someone like that. I didn't even watch them hahaha. I heard them. We were at Juan's making our cake. I don't think we even ate it. I haven't eaten and I'm so hungry! I'm lazy to make food. I'm probably just going to make me a shake. Last night was pretty fun too. It could have been better but it's okay.

Soooo yeah. I don't know what to do with these negative thoughts. I like stick them in the back of my head. I don't like to do that though because they usually all come out and it's just disaster wherever I go. Yeah. I don't even want to blog about it. Maybe some other time. I need to put on some clothes now and head over to Ashley Ocampo's house. We're planning on going to the fair. If that doesn't work out because of insane traffic, especially since Kelly Clarkson is going to be there and it's the last day, we're just going to go to her aunt's house.

She just texted me actually haha. I guess Del Mar actually ran out of parking! I can only imagine the kind of traffic over there. So I guess we're going swimming! Not when I just took a shower and I'm all clean. Boo. That means I have to change my outfit again. I wish I had more clothes. My wardrobe is all kinds of outdated.

Anyway I must continue on with this day! I need to be the happiest I can!! Good afternoon and have a lovely day!